Restless... restless..

Finally, it's the mid of september, no more regular classes for me.. first week of school has already passed and no classes for the whole week no teachers to listen to .. no classrooms to attend to .. no more worrying about quizzes, tests, reports, mp's ... just a thesis and a sideline project.. however how come im still restless... lately thesis is doing great.. however researching really tires my body.. i mean learning something new is always fun .. however when there's really a lack of resources or people to ask from.. then it's tiring... about sideline.. hmm i think one thing i learned lately is.. "everything has its limitation ... " you might hear people telling you..." for as long as you love what you're doing in work.. then it's the best thing that can happen to your career.." i partly disagree on this.. i don't know .. yes i love being a programmer.. i love being a developer, a creator of something new.. i love programming, i love webdevelopment.. learning new things.. but of course with these interests of mine .. i think lately.. it has not been fun anymore..i don't know if it's my point of view that is wrong or it's just me.. tell you the truth.. my part time job has been fun .. but not now.. i don't know the project is big and yet everything seems open ended.. i 've been doing code and fix.. doing a lot of editing in the system.. in the database.. it's just to big for one or two person to develop it.. i don't know but im not having the right mood anymore.. no matter how i try to relax myself just to stay focus on the work.. i just can't i don't know .. maybe it's just that i need people to support me.. show me their concerns.. and also give importance to what im doing.

Lately, ive been trying to make my self comfortable and try to bring up the strength in me to keep on going and finish the project at least before september ends... (wake me up when september ends.. ) but still i feel so restless... right now ive been sitted in front of this monitor.. pondering on stuff to do.. so many things to do.. yet so many time but so unproductive of me.. i guess something is really wrong is it me?? or is it anything else.. besides me.. anyway that's all .. just trying to pour my boredom or restlessness or whatever.. out through writing.. God help me.. please i need it. Thanks..